Update

I talked to my agency in BC which said it may be possible to get 'emergency guardianship' agueing that it is in the best interest of the child to be placed with me as soon as possible. But the kicker is that because of vacation times the two people that need to talk to each other to discuss if this is a possibility wont be able to until next Tuesday. I hate this. I don't want to think anymore. I can't let myself think that September might be on again, because it might not be and I can't go throught that roller coaster again. But a part of me hopes. So everything is on pause, for now.