I hate waiting. You would think as the second anniversary of my adoption journey came and went this month that I would have gotten better at this. I may have become resigned to it but I don't think I hate it any less now than at the beginning.
I am feeling impatient with the US. This I know is silly because I have only been signed up with them since Oct 1, which isn't very long. So I keep trying to tell myself to be patient, but it is soo not working. Part of my impatience I think is that I am not on a list like with international adoption where I could know that I am family number 47 and when I become family number 1 on the list I will get a baby. No, I am waiting for someone to pick me, to like me. This may never happen. You try not to take it personally as you wait but you can't help it and you can't help wondering will I wait forever?
So I have decided to re-evaluate Oct 1 of this year when I have been with the US for 1 year. I am not sure how long to give it but right now that is what I am comfortable with. Since I have signed up with the US I have become aware of other options for me as a single woman and potentially other countries that may open up soon. So I will look at all that Oct 1 and decided if I am where I should be and right now I am not convinced of that, so I guess we will see what happens.
In the meantime, does anyone out there know of any blogs following an adoption journey or one on the topic of adoption from the democractic republic of the congo? If so can you pass them on to me? Thanks!
